Another disillusioned day has past,
how long will this last?
I think soon, the devil has a new task,
he will control me and make me blast
I'll shoot myself with my gun,
with my face towards the sun
this voice inside telling me I'll never have a son
and the only thing I wanna do is run
run away from the pain
but its bound with me like I chain
my life is similar like the rain
so many tears that I shed
I wanna sleep and never get of my bed
cuz I don't want to feel sad
oh I wished someone could make me glad
but no there is just more pain instead
my dreams vanishing in thin air
I'm slipping away and I don't care
oh god this isn't faire
my eyes closing feeling the wind in my hair
my heart deserves better
 I'll never get what I deserve
cuz god you cant change what you wrote in that letter.
my last image in my head
is when I saw her and turned red
I will always love her


now I'm falling on the floor
hoping the lord guides me to heavens door
I hope you won't keep me lying on the floor
here I come lord your angel, don't close the door!

Written by Domenico G.

You and me

Can't even remember when I took my last cigarette
So I'll smoke another one
Everyone is trying to tell me something
But I don't here them
My head is with you
Far, far away.

Have I been too hard on you?
I can't remember
Are you mad at me?
I can't say
All I want is you to call me
To let me know you're doing okay.

I hear your voice in my head, over and over again
Disappointed, and a little surprised
Can you really blame me?
Then why am I feeling guilty?

You act like you can't trust me
Although you know you can
Am I really your friend?
Or do you see me just like some girl?
I know how I see you
Like someone who means so much to me.

I hear your voice in my head, over and over again
Disappointed, and a little surprised
Can you really blame me?
Then why am I feeling guilty?

I wish I knew how to reach your mind
I wish I knew how to tell you I'm sorry
You are my whole world
Nothing compares to you
If I could, I would leave with you
To a place where we are the only two to exist

I hear your voice in my head
Disappointed, and a little surprised
I've been sick about your acting
Let me know how you really are

And still you're everything to me

Written by Confused

Waste land

On waste land
Stands a boy with a shocking past
Raped
How long will this pain last?

On waste land
Stands a girl with a terrifying past
Raped
How long will this pain last?

Just around the corner
Stands a man with a horrible past
Rapist
When will the rapist rest?

Written by Ludovicus JC Koelemij

Love hurts

Life has no meaning for me anymore...
'cause it was you where I lived for...
I don't ever want to fall in love again...
'cause it can hurt so much,  damn...
the only way for me to leave this all behind...
is to see you just one more time...
you have probably already forgotten about me...
but I haven't about you can't you see?...
why didn't it last long?...
why are you already gone?...
I can't bare to see people in love...
it makes me wanna scream and throw with stuff...
why are they happy and not I?...
please tell me,  why o why?...
I did all kind of things with you...
don't tell me it was a lie that you liked it to...
I don't regret the things that I did...
I'm a young woman not a little kid...
helpless and powerless am I floating in this live...
just hoping that some day I will be somebody's wife...
I will always dream about it that it will be you...
but I know it will never be true...
that's why I feel so much sadness...
and that's why my life is such a mess...
I don't want to be me any longer...
I am weak and I'm not getting stronger...

Written by Corina

I'm waiting

I'm waiting for you to talk to me
I'm waiting for you to see...
The deep look of my eyes
Because I'm sick of all the lies
I don't hate you, I just love you
So don't understand me wrong
I'm waiting already so long
For you to hold me tight
But I'm still not in your sight
So I just wait
Forever...

Written by Leonie Tavenier

Alone

A place alone
Where I can be happy
It's just a dream
I try to reach it every day
But every time I have just some hope
It's taken away
Again
By the things you say
Every day
My sorrow grows again
And my feelings come back
I try not to cry
But then my tears start coming
Rolling slowly down my cheeks
Falling in the darkness
The coldness
of my fears
With frozen thoughts
Left behind
From this life without sense

Written by *Angel of Pain*

Still

Everytime I think about you
I still feel the hurt
You've caused me when you told me
That you'd love me too much
When we'd be together any longer
That you was afraid to be left behind
So you left me first
I still think about you every day
I still miss your lovin', your thuggin'
Knowing that loving you will never stop
My first love
And still my only love
It hurts to know you're in so much trouble
I want to help you
Because I still love you
After two years I still want you back
I'll always love you
For the first love of one's life
Gets a piece of her soul

Written by Rieke

Written by Confused

Too late

I didn't realized what I've done to him.
I thought he was just being an asshole.
This time I had it wrong.
He is the one with big problems, not me.

He explained why he wasn't happy.
I listened to his story.
He told me crying that he can't live anymore.
And I never felt so guilty before.

Today is the day that changed my thoughts about him.
But the problem hasn't come to a rest.
The taxes keep on going.
It won't take long anymore, or he has to leave his house.

I feel so fucking guilty!!!
What the hell have I done..?
Now he must live on the streets.
And I feel like it's my fucking own fault.

Wish I could do something.
Wish I could help him.
But I'm only fucking 15!
I can't do shit. it's too late.

I wish you the best of good luck, father.
I truly regret of all the things I said to you.
Wish I could do something for you, but I can't.
I wish you the best of good luck.

Your son.

Written by Dark_Dragon

My child

when I look at you
I see a part of me
hopefully it's my good side
because my depression is impossible to hide

I love with from the bottom of my heart
my only child
you bring me joy when I'm down
like no one ever could before

my feelings for you are so strong
but the outside world they
don't know
there are times I feel so down
I don't find the strength to carry on

when I can't take care of you
it makes me mad
why don't I have to force to
do it right

people talk about me
being a bad mom
and so on

but they don't know how I feel
how they make me cry
outside as well as inside

how can anyone be so bad

Written by Div

Falling

a little lake so beautiful
so deep as you can see
water so bright
life was great
I was a child

never did I knew my water would float
to rivers so poisoned
I could hardly breathe

little by little I cam by the sea
alone
my lake was far away
a beautiful thought
in the deep black sea

sometimes when I look very good
I can almost see the sun,
even touch here for a while

but than I fall back
to where trouble began
the bottom yet in sight

Written by Div

Afraid

I'm so afraid
of everything
not sure of myself
it seems impossible to breathe
my heart is beating way to fast
and my body is shivering

it's starting all over again
fear is killing me slowly
fear from the past and the future

my mind seems unable to think clearly
how long can I face this?

I'm tired
don't wanna face this again

Written by Div